pumpkin.

homecoming weekend was a blast. havent been that drunk in SO long, which is always a good time. i was the only roomate not to puke, besides jenna--you know here miss alki!

monday was just one of those weird days for me. i didnt want to get out of bed at all, so i didnt. haha i skipped my 11 oclock class, my 1 oclock (which doesnt take attendance, so it doesnt count to me) and i thought i would go to my 3 oclock health class, i walked all the way across campus to find a note on the door reading CANCELLED. yayyyy! came home and chilled with the girls, talked to my dad on the phone- which was really awkward cause its usually a really fake converstaion going something like this "oh schools great, just doing some homework, ya i miss you too, yes alot, ya just send me the tuition check, and ill see ya around christmas (ps-havent seen him since.. march!) okay dad i love you, i miss you too" but for some reason i hung up right after the word "too, ok bye" came out cause i just started balling. for the first time i actually realized how much i miss my dad. the dad i grew up with, not the man i know now- but the one that i knew before all the mess in my life happened with my family. whatever im not gonna sit and blog about how bad my childhood was, cause honestly i could write a book- and im not that person to sit around and dwell in my self pity about how shitty my childhood was, but before all that shit happened HE WAS THE COOLEST GUY EVER! i was the biggest daddy's girl ever, and i couldnt stand when anyone ever brought my dad down, like he was the fireman hero daddy that every girl wished they had! and for some reason i cant seem to find him anywhere. not in chicago, not in florida. not in a phone conversation. i feel like that guy doesnt exist anymore. my roomates told me that i should write him a letter and let him know how much i really hurt, knowing how selfish he is. ive heard the same shit over and over "ill come in and see eiu real soon, i mean i am paying for it!" YET, HE HAS YET TO SEE IT. and lacks the part of a father that actually cares. its okay i have mommy- who called me to let me know she filled my account with some cashola, and that i can make my monday night trip to walmart with the girls. we could prob feed a family of 20 with the amount of food we have in our pantry/fridge/and mini fridge.
couldnt fall asleep last night/nor this morning. actually fell asleep around 7:30 and woke up around 9. well i think 7:30, cause the last time i went to the bathroom was 7:20ish.

Tuesday- woke up today and had some cereal, which is odd for me cause i dont do breakfast, even though i know i should- APPLE CINNAMON CHEERRRRRRRRRIOS! :) angela picked me up and drove me to class, so nice of her. hey she offered. went to badminton, came back had lunch with jenna, went to dance class, came home and watched 'Charlie Bartlett' with jenna and meliss. Im smelling the aroma of garlic and teriyaki from melissa's dinner she cooked for herself. finally just getting to relax and continue on my new book. gonna make some of my new tea tonight. thanks stripes. P.S.- BINX went to the doctor, andhehas an upper respiratory infection, is on antibiotics *thank god, he will finally stop sneezing* and then can finally be declawed. :) yayyy no more ruining our couches. but the little guy is asleep next to me, what a sweeeetie.

gonna carve my pumpkin tonight. i was reinacting the family at a pumpkin patch last night when i got my pumpkin. brandon would be kicking the pumpkins, i would be choosing the most round and perfect one, and steven would be up my mom's ass like MOMMMMY LOOK AT MINE! and dad would be ... AT THE FIREHOUSE! BUT... btw my pumpkin is just how i liked it to be when i was yiddle. perfect height, color, and no bruises or dirt spots. give me some ideas as to what to carve it into ! :)

ahhh that feels good to get it all out. KELLY CLARKSON CONCERT IN 3 DAYS! hollllaz!

the words of my roomates.

melissa-

"i cant wait go get older and my GUYFRIEND comes home and says, DADDY'S HOME!"

"wanna see the bruise on my tit?" -"i did it, it was me!"

Rhea-

"if you disappeared, no one would look for you, you loose, cause i'm the winner!"

"I'm perfect! PERFECT PERFECT!"

Jenna-

"I'm going to lock that cat in the laundry room if he keeps whining like a baby!"

Me-

i make Jambalaya for dinner ----"spicy food gives me headaches guys" jenna ("walking gives me headaches")
COOL THEY DONT BELIEVE ME. :(

"Rhea, I'm ready to stop being a hater, i'll start loving now!"

THIS APT. IS A MESS. H.A.M. HOT ASS MESS. fo sho!

0.

Love- An archaic but commonly used way to say ZERO in the tennis scoring system. [or in Lauren's game of Life/Love.]

stripes--forgot this part.

went to bed last night in a white v-neck shirt. the one that Will wrote on the back.

"SLUT" with an arrow pointing to my ass.

didnt change before breakfast. got up to use the washroom, get the table, pay the bill. i wonder how many people saw my shirt saying "SLUT".

--found out it was the shirt after Tania's mom said, Lauren i think theres something written on your shirt. thank god ive been using "shout" on it, but you can still read it out.

embarassed.

BINX.

objects in mirror are closer than they appear.























i turn and look in the back seat to see this one.





















brat wouldn't let me take a picture.




















our new roomate. thachary binx. (hocus pocus)

looks how 90's my cd collection is. just too name a few. ricky martin, jewel, linkin park, 98 degrees, spice girls, mariah carey, and b-spears. wow. eclectic 10 yr. old :)

had a wonderful, busy, eventful 4 day weekend at home. THURSDAY- drove home to O.P. and met Steven & Chris at Home Run Inn, in chicago. by our old house. had a good dinner and then went back to chris' for a little bit, left and went home. rhea and big georgia came over with "half backed" pint icecream(s) and we had a girls night talk, then we all went in the basement and just chilled with steevoosh and chris. melissa and ryan stopped by and i ended up going to bed early cause i had a migrane.

FRIDAY-slept till 12:30, went downstairs and watched the recording of Grey's Anatomy. i love coming home from school to find the house decorated like were 5 yrs. old again. pumpkins, leaves, and ghosts all around the house. i invited jenna over to play at the park with me, we went with steven to the park with our tennis raquets and basketball and ran around again like 5 yr. olds. came back had lunch, rhea came over, melissa came over and i went and got my eyebrows waxed! FINALLY- i was looking like a beast. talked with mama and the girls, took a shower and me and mellancamp had power hour in my basement, then i made a terrific bonfire and we sat in my yard. coors lights and a bonfire- verrrr nice. okay ended up drinking like 11 beers- wastedddd. jill stopped over, rhea big and lil g's, and genie to chill in the yard with us for a little bit. then they all went home and mellancamp fell asleep in the family room, woke up at like 5:30 went in my bed and slept till 11.

SATURDAY- steevoosh and mamusia woke me up- blinds up, water bottle, advils, and stomach medicine. =] picked up rhea. took a shower. got ready for SIX FLAGS FRIGHT FEST! what a ballin time. i drove, chris sat in the front with me and danced the whole time, steven, jill, rhea and georgia all boogied in the back. six flags was packed! so we only went on a few rides. wizzer, viper, american eagle, and 3 spinny upside ones like in those little mardi gras towns. RAGING BULL WAIT WAS 3 HOURS! insane. came home and then i slept over at rheas. we just chilled outside and talked for a yiddle bit, had some camels' and went to bed.

TODAY- woke up, picked up tania. me rhea and tania went to blueberry hill pancake house for breakfast. the new one on Bell Rd. my favorite restaurant for breakfast ever! had the 'luck of the irish skillet' then went home and watched the bears game with steevoosh. so pissed we lost :( it was a great game. rhea picked me up, drove back to eiu with mel and the new kitty cat. THACHARY BINX- like the black cat from Hocus Pocus (LOVE THAT MOVIE) ps. he's black and 3 months old. adorable. such a good boy. sleeps a lot. got "fourth meal" for dinner and now were just chillen and doing homework. did my sunday chore so i can relax for the night.

THIS WEEK- 3 major tests, two midterms. its gonna suck. but good weekend at home, and homecoming is this week. were expecting a few visitors. CANT WAIT FOR HALLLLOOWEEENNN! :)

vegas skies.

grr. acid reflex go away!

melissa is cooking dinner tonight, litttle scared haha!

i saw my advisor today- got a little overwhelmed because there are a lot of requirements, but i have a lot done- so thats good. i have to take math and KINIESIOLOGY! nooooooo! i know thats my major but from everyone i talk too, they all say thats their hardest class for their major. sad.

fast as you can - great song, but melissa wont stop playing it! BOOF!

i have tons of homework to do tonight, i think im just gonnna sit down and finish all my homework for the week, so i can be done and play.

still undecided if im going home for Fall Break or nott.

ive been listening to The Cab all day today. its fun to walk to class with my ipod, i just couldnt live with out. i know dramatic, but i like to space my steps to the beat. so sometimes ill time myself and ill make it to class in ten minutes or a slow song and make it in 15 minutes.

p.s.- i got caught in the rain twice today. i have the shiver's :(

public possession.

thurs- Carrie Underwood concert. Firehaus bar at u of i. Slumbo with my other set of roomates. another good time at 103 cha**ers, the concert was amazing and so were our seats.

fri- drove back to eiu, was very crabby and menstrual. took a 2 hr. nap, showered, and people started to come over to our small get together (pajama beerpong!!) just an excuse to not dress up. turned out great, about 25 people were here- no drama, and everyone had a good time.

sat- steven and chris left, i decided to get a huge hair cut, cutting off 7 1/2 inches of nasty hair. i love the new look. its helping with the whole confidence aspect, and its easier to do. came back and got the shakes cause i didnt eat so i laid down for a bit, woke up and had some cereal. the boys came over and we started to play some flippy cup where i ended up beating all 5 people on the opposite team .. ya. beast?
then some more people came over and we headed over to justins. was having a great time talking to mystery man Zach. who i need to find. went outside to help some friends out not end up getting in a fight, and i got caught with a beer in my hand. was put into the cop car, and i thought i was fucked. i am pretty much- but it couldve been worse. i was very respectful and answered everything with a yes sir, no sir answer. i have to be present in court with an attorney, to plead my case- doesnt this all sound fake? ya. i wish it was. then some other family drama occurred that my close people know about, im not going to blog about it. but i was a wreck, pretty upset that sat night/sun morning. ended up going to bed at 5:30,i laid with rhea and she talked with me and helped me fall asleep, and stop shaking.

sun- chill day fo sho! watched the bears win, the sox win, went to buffalo wild wings with my friends, then came home and did some homework and went to bed. yet i didnt sleep more than like 20 minutes so i ditched classes today 2/3 but one didnt take attendance. dinner in half hour. at thomas dining hall with LINDSAY! *old .r.a* nicest person in this entire world. not kidding.

soo hungry.
soo happy with new hair.
soo dont want to be in school anymore.
soo excited for dinner.

-La.